Adam Rafferty – Guitar and Spirit

All about music, guitar, spirituality, personal development and being happy


2 Comments

Happiness for No Reason At All

Greets friends. I am up at 4:27 am in NYC….the Europe jetlag has me crashing early and waking early.

I just returned from a great week of playing jazz with the Alvin Queen Quintet in Bern, Switzerland. It was a very musical, fun, grooving gig. I am looking forward to a slew of fingerstyle guitar performances in Bangkok and Germany over the next month.

“Rational” logic or dinner table / family conversations would follow like this…wow, I am doing all these things – gigs, cds, etc…therefore I must be happy. This is the typical thinking. Yes, I have been a working music machine all year and “should” be proud, happy and all that.

Well, I have struggled with a lot over the last several weeks, actually. The stress of essentially playing 2 styles and 2 instruments has had me freaked out…there’s a new wonderful lady in my life whom I love and don’t want to be away from for weeks on end…I’m watching my parents age, and I’m seeing friends have kids and not having any myself…and as I embrace the touring life, my grip on the local NY scene loosens and it feels like there’s no ground under me. My home feels like a hotel and a hotel feels like home.

Ok, none of this is real – it’s my mental creation, and yuck, I don’t like writing it and making it more real…but to prove the point that stresses can creep in even when the outside looks rosy.

I was thinking to myself how absurd it all is. To not be happy in the midst of the worldly success? What’s wrong with me? And the riddle continues…I “should” be happy, but am not. What? Who said I should be? How come I am not? And on and on, the mind spins.

Ahh, and then the answer descends on me….yesterday afternoon after stuffing my face with the local Indian food here in Jackson Heights, walking back to my apartment. Must be something in that Indian food, I tell ya 🙂

On 74th street as I strolled I suddenly had no thought of the future, not thought of the past, no thought of what I have accomplished or what my plans were. No worries, no ideas, no nothing. The most full, brimming nothingness, so beautiful all by itself. Awareness. It was utter presence and delectable silence that descended on me and sent a shiver up my spine just for a moment.

To know that this is available always is incredible. Absolute grace and bliss for no reason at all. In a moment, the mind and soul are refreshed, wiped clean of illusion.

That’s what I call a gift from God.


4 Comments

Letting Go

Greetings Friends.

I know it’s been a while since I have written. To be perfectly honest, I like to write when I am spiritually flying, so that I can exude great vibes and raise everyones spirit.

It’s been an exciting, busy successful time since August but it’s been very trying at times, with personal, emotional and physical rough spots. I did not feel right writing. I now feel I am getting back on track, and wanted to reach out to you.

No worries – I am in great shape now, but life is just ….well, life!

This year I had set myself a bunch of goals, and I have achieved them:

1) Release “Chameleon” CD
2) Release the Stevie Wonder DVD
3) Release a Christmas CD (announcement coming soon)
4) Continue Touring

But like anyone who works hard – be it a business owner, a medical student, a stay at home mom – if you do the job at hand, other aspects of life can and often do get stressful. Relationships, a feeling of grounded-ness, and loving care for one’s body easily slip.

What happened yesterday though was amazing. A friend visited me for lunch and he was beaming, as he had just been to Santa Fe. For him it’s a very spritually charged place, and he just looked rejuvanated.

Simply in his presence I listened to him and looked at him, and chose not to speak much. I felt my troubles simple drop. If I started talking, and telling myself “my story” again my tensions would come back.

I saw this ability to simply “let go” which the Release Technique and Sedona Method are based on. It is very deep to see that the feeling about an issue is not the issue. Let me repeat that – becasue it is easy to gloss over this idea. The feeling about something is not the thing.

We can in fact let feelings go and not hang on.

The Release Technique and Sedona Method give specific and awesome techniques of inquiry to facilitate this. In my case yesterday it was more intuitive and spontaneous, but I felt like myself again – in an instant.

I’m black! Err, I mean back……

🙂

So friends, I’ll write from the road – I leave for Swizerland tomorrow to play with Jazz Drum Legend Alvin Queen for a week!